The reason? There has been a lot of stuff going on lately. It has been stressful. It has been emotional. It has been worrisome. I really do not want to discuss these things yet, but rest be assured, I am just fine. I just have a bad habit of shutting down when I get extremely stressed. I was unable to think of anything to say on here...mainly because my mind was all consumed with other issues that I did not feel like discussing.
Things are better. I am fine. I am pushing forward.
One of the ways that I have chosen to help with stress relief is that I joined a gym! I was a member several years back and stopped going. The sad part is that I actually enjoyed it, but got lazy. I have tried to get my activity in at home and it is just too hard. I get too distracted. I will just get into the groove of my Jillian video and will hear one or more of the following...
"Mommy! Darcy is coloring on the wall!"
"Mommy! I need to go potty!"
"Mommy! I need a drink of water!"
"Mommy! I am scared of the fan!"
"Mommy! My blanket isn't covering my feet!"
"Mommy! I need a tissue!"
"Mommy! I wet the bed again!"
And just when I think that my head is going to explode...she throws in the
"Mommy! I want a hug and a kiss!" (This one always makes me feel like an ass, because I walk in all pissed off and annoyed and then feel like a jerk...cause she is just asking for a hug and a kiss. Kid is smart...)
And then, when I put my foot down and tell her no more drinks of water will be handed out this evening, I get this:
Four year old tantrums are so fun.
So, workouts had actually become stressful instead of a source to actually relieve stress. Therefore, workouts ceased to exist in my world. This was not acceptable.
I went in for my consultation and the nice woman took me on a tour. I actually felt like I wanted to cry. There was so much to do and the facility is really beautiful. The price was right. SIGN MY FAT REAR UP!
So, I have been going regularly for the past few weeks. I am restricted myself to the cardio machines so far because the weight machines scare me -- only because I am not sure how to use them. I have a free appointment with a trainer soon. I am hoping that will be the day that I can learn how to best use the weight equipment. I also plan to use the pool soon and take advantage of spinning classes.
My first barrier when I got there was this:
It, uh, took me way too long to figure out how to use these lockers. Did I just ask someone? No, I had to act like I knew what I was doing. People who know what they are doing definitely stare at the key pad with a confused look and are unsuccessful at locking the locker multiple times. I have a flippin Master's Degree and it took me forever to figure this out. Obviously, my Master's Degree is not in keypad locker locks. Maybe I could earn that degree online...
I have been burning lots of calories and doing really well, overall. I love it and it has done wonders for relieving the aforementioned stress. I feel so relaxed when it is over and I have been sleeping like a baby. One of the best decisions I have made in awhile.
And finally, the obligatory heart rate monitor/calorie burn pic...
I promise I will never ever do a gym selfie. Ever. I just cannot bring myself to do it.
So, here's to a less stressed me! :)