Yes, it has been awhile. Work really is getting the best of me. This time of year is like a school counselor's "tax season." It will slow down by the end of this week, and hopefully by then I can be back to posting daily again.
I wish I could say that I have been doing well with eating and exercise, but I have not. It isn't necessarily due to overeating either. I am packing healthy lunches and not really getting to eat them. I am so busy, that a lunch break is a luxury. So, if I do get to eat lunch, I am eating at about 2:00, and then I am not hungry for dinner. So basically, I am eating a smallish breakfast and a lunch. So, I have been waaaay under my calories for the day. This can be just as bad as being over in some cases. I weighed myself this week, and I have not gained, so there is that at least. I also have eaten a couple things I shouldn't have eaten...like bread and a piece of candy here and there. I knew I shouldn't have eaten them, but the old, "I am stressed and DESERVE this mini Snickers bar" mentality crept in. Old habits die hard, and I am trying to look inside myself and find better ways to make myself feel better when I am stressed.
Exercise has not happened. This is mainly because when I get home, I make dinner for the family, wash dishes, bathe kids, put them to bed, and spend the rest of the evening working on work I brought home. Again, this hectic time of year will be over by the end of this week, so hopefully as the week goes on, I will bring less and less work home, and exercise can come back into my life. I have tried waking up early to exercise, but getting up at 4:30 to exercise and then driving an hour and ten minutes to work is a recipe for a sleepy commute. Plus, I find it damn near impossible to hop out of bed that early.
I wish I could sit here and type about how I am rocking my lifestyle changes despite the fact that life is hectic right now. I wish I could sit here and say that I am using exercise to relieve my stress. The truth is that I am not being hard on myself because I have not followed through the way I would have liked. I am owning my shortfalls and hoping to learn something in the process of overcoming them. This is a process and I am willing to own the tough times just as much -- if not more so than the good times. Besides, if this were easy, I would have nothing to write about! ;)