Aidan noticed I was fat.
<GASP> Well, duh, Courtney. You haven't been wearing some cloak of fat invisibility that you picked up on your last trip to Hogwarts. If there was one, surely Hagrid would be wearing it. (Ok, uh, yeah, I like Harry Potter.)
Anyway, he wasn't mean about it. I was carrying something and my shirt came up a little bit and she saw my belly fat. He started laughing and said, "Mommy, I can't believe you're fat!" I knew he did not mean it maliciously and I didn't take it that way. This kid is the sweetest and he never goes a day without telling me that I am beautiful (seriously, sweetest kid in the history of EVER). The reason that this is new motivation is because I want to be a positive example to my kids in many areas, but I want one of them to me a healthy lifestyle. Both of my kids are active, fit kids, and I want to keep it that way.
We have season passes to Kings Island. I love going with the kids and watching them have fun. Quite frankly, I am sick of the belts being tight and the little bar that comes down for safety being so tight against my stomach -- so tight it is uncomfortable. I also saw a ride this past weekend that I really wanted to ride, but was afraid to because I thought I was probably too fat to ride it. I was. You and your partner could only weight a total of 275 pounds, and unless Aidan only weighs about 28 pounds, it wasn't happenin'. So, Aidan had to ride it himself and I stood and watched from the little side gate. That sucks.
Oh well...to offset that visual of my fat hanging over the safety bar, here are some cute pics from this weekend:
Pending Beach Vacation
This is a big one for me. We have decided that we are definitely going to chip in for a condo with other family members for a Myrtle Beach vacation next summer. I am super excited because I loved our last vacation there. My goal? I want to go to the beach thinner. I have a little under a year to make some good progress. I am not expecting to be at goal. I am just hoping to be well on my way. I want to wear fun beach clothes like bathing suits and sundresses and feel cute. I wore all those things the last time, but I had this cloud of insecurity following me...even though no body even cared but me. I want to be lighter. "Nuff Said.